You can't go home again
Feb. 15th, 2015 08:20 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
lherelenfelineIt's the middle of February and we are planning our November wedding. I'm the only one working, R is in shool full time. Even with a tiny, tiny budget of 2K, it's very hard to same money for anything even resembling a reception.
And then there's Pennsic.
Pennsic is home. It's 2 weeks of joy and recharging amongst people I consider more or less family. I haven't been able to afford to go since 2011. In 2012 R was in school and there was no money for me to go. In 2013 I was sitting the bar exam, and there was no money for me to go because R was in school and I was looking for work. In 2014 I had just started a job, and R was in school full time so we couldn't afford it. This year, R is taking an 8 week intensive at Middlebury at the cost of 10K, and we are saving for the wedding, so again, there's no money.
At this point, I'm starting to think it will never happen. And that hurts.
I get that R wants a proper wedding, with a reception and family and all that. I would be perfectly happy with an elopment.
But really, I just want to go home for 2 weeks.
And then there's Pennsic.
Pennsic is home. It's 2 weeks of joy and recharging amongst people I consider more or less family. I haven't been able to afford to go since 2011. In 2012 R was in school and there was no money for me to go. In 2013 I was sitting the bar exam, and there was no money for me to go because R was in school and I was looking for work. In 2014 I had just started a job, and R was in school full time so we couldn't afford it. This year, R is taking an 8 week intensive at Middlebury at the cost of 10K, and we are saving for the wedding, so again, there's no money.
At this point, I'm starting to think it will never happen. And that hurts.
I get that R wants a proper wedding, with a reception and family and all that. I would be perfectly happy with an elopment.
But really, I just want to go home for 2 weeks.
